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Sally’s Experience with Chantix

2014 September 27
by ChantixSurvivor

Last year (2013) my husband was taking Chantix. He became very aggressive and mean.  Everyone told him to stop taking it.  It didn’t work for him, so he just kept smoking.  I noticed he had a lot of pills left and he told me I could have them.  I took them for a couple of weeks and began to shut down, isolating myself, and sleeping most of the day and night.

One day I lay on my bed and had this overpowering URGE TO DIE.  I tell you this in hindsight because, when all of this was happening, I just thought I was insane, that the defect was mine alone.  I took a bottle of my husband’s pills and downed them with diet soda.  I lay in my bed and went to sleep.  I later woke up in the ICU on a ventilator after a ten day long coma.  I was told that I coded and they had revived me.  I was in bed so long that I was on anti-coagulant therapy.  I could not enunciate.  I had bedsores, I had to wear diapers,  I had dozens of x-rays, multiple MRIs, a very high fever which required ice packs all over my body, muscle atrophy, countless IV and needle injections, and so on. Most of which I don’t remember.  I was in bed, in the hospital for FOUR MONTHS.  I had only been in the hospital for the birth of my kids before, and nothing else. I could not talk, walk, or even remember my own phone number.

I am still recovering from the most devastating experience of my life.  The worst part about this was the message it gave my family, besides the one that I was crazy, the idea that I did not love them enough to want to live.  I will never be able to forgive myself but, knowing there are others out there like you, helps a lot.

I did not put the pieces together until I was recovering at home and I saw the warnings about suicidal behavior on the Chantix commercials.

I had never attempted suicide before and of course, will never again.  I almost lost my life and my family was at great risk without me there.  My husband and my children cried over me in my hospital bed and begged me to never do it again.  My wonderful son said to me that I really hurt him.  This was the first time in his 25 years, he ever uttered those words to me. 

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  1. May 28, 2015

    So you took the medication, prescribed to someone else, and are complaining about the side effects?

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